April 28, 2008

My Own Private Ironman

First of all, I apologize.

I know, I know, my Ironman Arizona race report is looong overdue. Like crazy long overdue. Like I may as well start writing a race report for Coeur d'Alene at this point (exceptin' for the fact that I'm not racing Coeur d'Alene. In fact, I only recently learned how to spell it correctly.)

To be honest, I've been traveling like a fool since the race and have been in non-stop meetings.

At least, that was my initial excuse. I was going to tell you that about a week ago but then, as time went by, I realized that the excuse was running thin (though no less true... I'm not back home until next Monday if you really want to know.)

In all reality, it takes me an unbelievable long time to write a race report. As you may know, I tend to ramble on with my writings. When it comes to race reports, I don't just want to talk about the course and how slow/fast I did it (mostly slow), I want to be able to share my true experience and my feelings. True experiences take time.

That was my second excuse. I actually bought into that one as the true reason until I realized that it doesn't entirely cover everything. Which leads me to the real reason I am a wee bit delayed in sharing my Ironman Arizona race report with you, my wonderful peeps.

You see, Ironman Arizona opened my eyes to me. It revealed my greatest strength and my strongest weakness. It laid bare the true essence of who I am.

Unfortunately, I have yet to figure it out.

You know that feeling when you recognize that something really big and super important just happened, but you can't quite figure out what it was? Take the movie "My Own Private Idaho" as a for instance. I saw that movie when it came out, decades ago. I think about that movie a lot because I know, without a doubt, that it revealed a deep-seeded philosophy of life that reflected upon everything in existence. I just have no friggin clue what it is. In fact, I don't even know why they decided to call it "My Own Private Idaho," but I have a pretty good hunch that, whatever it means, the title selection is brilliant.

This is exactly what my Ironman Arizona race report situation is like. There is something big in here, something that will reveal my entire character and alter the very course of my existence. I keep talking about the race, writing about it, digging in further to my race report and my experience out there in the desert. I am so very close to figuring it out. So very close to having this gosh darn race report complete.

Rest assured, whether or not I get there, I'll share it with you soon.


Anonymous said...

wow.... what a cliffhanger. not to fear, i cant wait to read the final race report!

jbmmommy said...

Okay, we'll keep waiting. It's all a bit too existential for me, I don't think I have deep thoughts, but I enjoy reading your.

KodaFit said...

I guess on the plus side of this, the anticipation is building...

Anonymous said...

j-I was there too, and dnf'd, so congrats for finishing.

have you listened to the B-52's, Private Idaho? they might be on to something. Back in the day (early 80's), I found them quite inspiring.

Andra Sue said...

Okay, not to bemoan the issue here, but...........if I was able to crank out an IMAZ sherpa write-up (with pictures, no less) the very week I was grieving over my dog, I think the least you can do is manage one measly race report for your faithful readers. :)

We're all waiting, dude. Hope it's full of existential goodness!

Alili said...

Waiting on the edge of my seat.

Triathlonmom said...

I love that movie! I keep thinking one day i'll get the full meaning. Actually, I bought it so i could watch it over and over until i got it. Hasn't happend yet. but when my teen idol, river phoenix died (named my cat after him, please forgive me, I think I was 11 years old)....wait i'm getting sidetracked. When river phoenix died, i thought maybe i'd figured it out...but nooooo.
can't wait to hear about it. maybe the crux of the report should be something inspirational to convince all of us Ironman fence-sitters to finally go for it!